after the visits

I am home! Well, I have nothing to say! Someone please, please help me! After paying my visits to Faruq, I went to Arissa's room. I said nothing only my straight face. I was just standing at the end of her bed and I looked down. Mom hug Arissa's mom and get near to Arissa. Arissa was looking at me, I know. But I'm still looking down, right on both of my shoes. Mom hugged Arissa and I do not know what were they whispering to each other. Arissa cried in mom's hug. As well as Arissa's mother. Arissa's dad walked off the room. I do not know, should I walk out too or? So I stayed at the same position with no movement, nothing! Mom walked to me, hold my hand and touched my face and she left with Arissa's mom and closed the door. Left only me and Arissa in that cold gloomy room. I am still at my position and I am not moving anywhere. I know Arissa was starring at me. I looked down. Really down. Few minutes past, and... I walk off that room with nothing came out from my mouth. So we went back. Mom didn't say anything about what ever things that happened at the hospital just now. And.. We talked about something else in the journey back home. We dropped by at the coffee house and catch a cup or two of coffee... And now I am on my bed, waiting for myself to discover something!

=( someone, please help me!!

A picture sent by Joshua this morning telling me Raziq's condition.