Monday, June 30, 2008

Yana, be strong!

I was doing nothing this morning when Yana called me around 9 am saying that she is comfirmed to be back to Malaysia today and pick her up around 5pm at KLIA. I was so shocked that she came back earlier than she suppose which is on wednesday. It's only been 5 days she has been away to Melbourne, Australia. Well, I guess there must be something is really wrong somewhere over there in Melbourne. It must be something to do with Azim since she was there to only visit Azim and nothing else.

So around 5.00pm I arrived and parked my car. Slowly walk to the international arrival place, looking at the information board saying that the flight has touched down less than a minute ago. So I quickly fasten up my walk and arrived at the arrival gate, standing there waiting for like less than 10 minutes before seeing Yana appear from the gate. I smiled and expecting that she will smile back to me like usual, but she did not. She saw me and nod a little as an acknowledgment then quickly look down. She look sad with her sour face.

As she was approaching me, I went nearer. She suddenly put down her bags and hugged me tight. I was really shocked. Never after our teenage age that we hugged like this even we are really close cousins because daddy did once remind me about putting a gap between both of us because daddy said, "Yana and Syaiq, batal air wuduk". So I understood. But today, I have to forgive Yana since she cried so badly after seeing me. I know she has thousands of things to tell me, and for sure.. It is about Azim. Yana did said sorry for her little bit inordinary acts by hugging me just now. I said, I understand and I forgived her. I know that she really needed a shoulder to cry on and someone to talk to. She was really in blue and has no one to talk to.

So I brought her straight to the Summit, and catched cups of coffee to listen to her long long story. Well, I did not know that her problem was really that serious. I did not know that she has gone to Melbourne just to witnessed the unfaithful act of Azim. And even just to get a break up words from Azim. It is bullshit, man! They had been together like for 3-4 years. And end up just like this? Like what kind of girl that Azim is hunting there in Australia? Good looking, hot, pretty girls? As if Yana is not pretty? Or is he hunting for a smart, clever girl? As if Yana is not clever enough after completing her spm with 8A's.

Poor Azim! If you ever read this, I would like to tell you.. I am shy that there were a man in this world like you! I am regret for god sake that you were ever born in this beautiful world. And I would love to say that you are the most stupid, brainless man in the world by letting go my precious cousin name Yana. Hey, she has been a great, good girlfriend for you.. And this is what she got from you? Perfect gift! To Yana, be strong and do not feel down by just a man like Azim.


:: True Love is When Both Are Being Honest,
Not Only One side ::

i miss you


:: I am missing you so much, love ::
-it hurts me a lot-

Love Survey

Have you ever been in love?
yes


Are you in love now... or falling in love?
yes i am now in love... with her! Only her


Have u been cheated on?
yes before..


Have you cheated on someone?
maybe


Are you in a relationship now?
yes


When was your last break up?
last year?


How many girlfriends have you had?
this is my second relationship, and hoping will be the last one!


Do you ever want 2 get married and have kids?
yes for sure!


Who is your first true love (even if it didnt work out)?
my last love but it didnt work out so this will be my true love ever


Are you taken?
yes i am


If yes, by who?
shafiqah abdul razak


What's your favorite thing about her?
everything!


What's your least favorite thing about her?
ha! when she always refuse to eat!!!


Where did you meet?
in the dreams =) haha


Describe her in 5 words.
special.different.lovely.cute.spectacular!


How quickly did you fall for her?
2 weeks? (the fastest ever in record)


What's the most romantic thing she has said to you that made you melt?
when she said, she love me!


Is she your type?
Of coz she is!


Are you in love?
I am so in love!!!!!!!

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Miss You Like Crazy - The Moffats

The Moffats, my 90's boy band!

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again
I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again


:: I miss you, my love ::


QUES???

Do you love someone?
yes

Do you believe in love at first sight?
maybe yes

Do you believe in Love?
yes

Are you currently mad at someone?
no

Which of your family members has the worst temper?
mom and dad is wonderful

Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
maybe hehe

Is anyone mad at you?
are you? hehe

Are you usually mad?
depends

When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?
stare angrily

Name:
syaiqkal hashfee bin adam syariff

Birthday:
1st Jan

What's your main goal in life?
my studies, and later i'll think about her (let her study first too)

Do you want to have children?
of course,who doesnt

Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
yes

What event is coming up that you're most excited about?
well, nothing much in my schedule

If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?
donate to who is in need, treat mom and dad for a special dinner, buy her something that make she smile, then shopping..haha

If you could have anything right now what would it be?
I want her..to be with me always!

Are you against gay marriage?
It is wrong, man!

Lower the drinking age?
no i dont think so, better don't

Abortion?
say no to abortion, the baby in your tummy wants to live too

How many beds did you lay in today?
only one, always one

What color shirt are you wearing?
purple

Name one thing that you do everyday?
i eat everyday hehe.. but mostly i love her everyday..

How much cash do you have on you right now?
y must u know?

Look to your left- what could you use as a weapon?
i can only see the wall

Do you have plants in your room?
yes, few cactus

Does anything hurt on your body right now?
no

Recent time you were really upset?
none

Movie watched in cinema:
the tattooist

Person you talked on the phone with?
mom

Bubble Bath you took?
kinda always hehe

Ball game you watched?
football

What is today?
today is sunday

Anything in your planner or calendar?
nah, im just gonna stay in and have a good rest till the semester reopen

What did you do tonight?
hang out with friends

What are you going to eat?
dunno

What time did you wake up?
6.45am

Tomorrow Is:
monday

Are you Looking forward to it?
yesss

Are you going to laugh?
no idea

Whats good about tomorrow?
just as usual..

Love Quiz?

1 ) Single, Taken, or Flirt?
Taken

2 ) Are you happy with that?
i'm so happy diz time

3 ) Would you still kiss your ex?
never!!!

4 ) Have you ever had your heart
broken?
oh yes!

5 ) Do you believe that there are
certain circumstances where cheating
is ok?
better shut-up!

6) Have you ever talked about
marriage?
umm yes..?

7) Do you want children?
yes2!

8) How Many?
2 is not enough, 4 is too crowdy?

9) If someone liked you right now,
would you want them to tell you?
no.. i am taken!

10) Do you want someone you can't
have?
no..

11) Have you ever been in love?
absolutely..

12) Do you believe in celebrating
anniversaries?
of coz!

13) Do you believe that you can change
for someone?
for someone dat i really love,y not?..

14) Is it a good day?
yup..

15) What would you say about your most
recent ex?
let bygone b bygone..

16) Does your ex still have feelings
for you?
ask her..dun think so la

17) Do you believe in long distance
relationships?
so far..i really believe in it

18) Do you believe in love at first
sight?
obviously!

19) Do you love your special one?
YES! Very much!

20) What do you want her/him to know?
Sayang, I love you so much and I hope you feel the same way too..

21) Do you want her/him to do the same quiz??
Yes, why not..


Saturday, June 28, 2008

You are really someone to me

Someone who keeps me shining day and night,
Someone who appreciates and respects all I can be,
Someone who is strong enough to commit and love only me.
Someone who will be there to kiss away my tears,
Secure my doubts and release my fears.
Someone who can restore my faith in love once again.
This love is like a dream that has yet to become true,
Or to believed until I found you...
Someone who I love so much,
and it is you,
Shiqa..

Thursday, June 26, 2008

umm.. ni ke yg the other one tu?


:: lesson to learn : jgn hide hide ngn i, sayang.. ::

hurmm i've got her secret!



:: hehe =P ::

Best 60's Dara Pujaan

Duhai dara kau manis jelita
Senyum mu indah berseri-seri
Hati ku selalu menjadi tergoda
Memandang kau tiap hari

Engkaulah yang ku puja-puja
Gadis impian di waktu malam
Aku duduk termenung kesepian
Terkenang dara pujaan

Tidak kau kasihan
Ku menanti kepadamu selalu
Biar ku rasa bosan
Hati ku tetap pada mu

Beginilah hidup dalam dunia
Selalu sama saling bercinta
Marilah dinda pujaan kesuma
Mengikat janji asmara


:: my best evergreen selection 60's ::

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I wish I could...


Have u in my hug =P
(you and me)

S H I Q A

My days have never been brighter
Because you fill them with much laughter
My heart has never been warmer
Because you care for me and our future
My life has never been happier
Because you turn everything sweeter
My feelings have never been stronger
Because you make me love you like no other.


:: LOVE is when I love you ::

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Bisikan Nurani (In-Team)

Lautan kematian ombak
Tenang pantai tiada terusik
Begitulah tasik hatiku
Sejak kehadiranmu

Betapa aku hargai
Anugerah syurga di dunia
Doa kudus aku panjatkan
Semoga dirahmati

Telahpun ku syukuri
Di dalam hidup ini
Cinta suci kurniaan Ilahi

Kejernihan wajahmu
Sempurna pada pandanganku
Kau kirana
Keturunan terpilih
Disanjung serta dihormati
Kau permata
Kesederhanaanmu
Mengecap kekayaan dunia
Kau mestika
Ketaqwaan dirimu
Itu yang merantai jiwaku

Bukan aku memuji
Apalagi memuja
Salahkahku kagumi… perhiasan duniawi

Bisikan nuraniku
Engkaulah pilihanku
Akanku pertahankan
Amanah suci ini



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default song at the page to listen peacefully ::


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:: this is song is the perfect one for me to describe my situations ::

I am very-very sorry for my silly way treating u


I love you..
I really do.
I am very sorry for what I have done that hurt you.
I am hopping that this relationship will be blessed..

:: from the one that loving you ::

memories in bukits area, bandung IND.

oh no riq!!! u captured my sensored pose of all.. hehekss =P


A Heart Dedication For Her..

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

my happy days after i have you


I am much happier now..
Much better now..
since I have you..


:: Our love is no more a secret ::

When You Tell Me That You Love Me

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

You love me
When you tell me that you love me

Monday, June 23, 2008

as i promissed you before

~ring in the rose~
roses and tulips



:: the red rose in the middle of white roses ::
:: kesucian + cinta = kita ::

after that miracle moment ~alhamdulillah~

I didn't know I can still love after all that I went through before.
I didn't know that she loves me too.
I didn't know that this love is worth.
I didn't know that she loves the way I love her.

But I know that she is different.
From the very first time.
I know that she is really worth to have.
I know that she is someone that I waited for.
Someone that I could share almost everything.

I hope our love will forever remain,
And we will at last be together.
Standing side by side,
In the eternal happiness of love.


:: my love, my soul, my S * * Q * ::

I want it to be more special

I am sorry that I say it too early,
I am sorry that I didn't wait for that perfect moment,
I am sorry that I was so crazy over you,
That I could no more wait.

I am sorry to myself too,
That I disobey myself,
That I against my promises,
That I was so hunger for your love.

I once promised myself,
To wait for the perfect moment,
To let you be ready for this,
To let you discover my love by yourself,
To let you freed before I could held you..

I am sorry that I rush,
I am sorry that I was so insane,
I am sorry that I was so crazy over you.
I am really sorry if my love discomfort you.

I will never do this again,
I will never hush u no more,
I just want you to know,
My love can wait for you.


:: I just want you to know before it is too late ::

if i ever got you, i could not ask for more!

Gazing at the stars in a dark cold night
Uttering sweet words beneath pale moonlight
I wish you can see, I wish you can hear
I wish you can kiss and hold me tight

I close my eyes and shed those tears
Thinking how far you are from me
Then I look above and see the stars
How they light, they glitter and sparkle
Despite how far they are by sight

I find myself smiling as I realize
That though distance between us
Kept us apart but only in body
And never in heart

You gave me reason to smile
You gave me reason to hope
You gave me so much and
I can never ask for more

And if I have one thing to thank right now
That's when you came into my life!

:: I love you more and more each day ::

You Make Me Feel Brand New

My love
I’ll never find the words, my love
To tell you how I feel, my love
Mere words could not explain
Precious love
You held my life within your hands
Created everything I am
Taught me how to live again

Only you
Cared when I needed a friend
Believed in me through thick and thin
This song is for you
Filled with gratitude and love

God bless you
You make me feel brand new
For God blessed me with you
You make me feel brand new
I sing this song ’cause you
Make me feel brand new

My love
Whenever I was insecure
You built me up and made me sure
You gave my pride back to me
Precious friend
With you I’ll always have a friend
You’re someone who I can depend
To walk a path that never ends

Without you
My life has no meaning or rhyme
Like notes to a song out of time
How can I repay
You for having faith in me

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Andai Aku Mampu Menjadi 'Si Dia' Untukmu


Mencari dia kan ku melaluiNYA,
Menyayanginya kan ku dahulukan DIA,
Mengasihinya biar ke jalan DIA,
Merinduinya kan luahkan padaNYA.

Mencari dia bagai mencari sebutir gula di hamparan garam,
Mencari dia bagai memilih permata di hempasan kaca,
Mencari dia bagai menyusur pesisir pantai untuk sebutir mutiara.

Andai aku tersalah pilih,
Kan kurasakan kemasinan garam yang kusangkakan gula.

Andai aku tersalah ambil,
Akan ku tertusuk kaca yang kusangkakan permata.

Andai ku silap pilihan,
Kan ku tertipu dek sinaran pepasir yang kusangkakan mutiara.

Pencarian ini terlalu panjang,
Hingga puas ku jelajahi rimbunan ranjau.
Penantian ini terlalu lama,
Hingga musim pun berubah warna.

Andai tiba saatnya kita bersatu,
Biar sehati, biar sejiwa,
Biar sebati, jangan kecewa.

Andai saat itu temukan kita,
Ku mahu kau bersedia,
Menerima cinta sang arjuna,
Yang tiada istimewanya.

Namun buat saat ini,
Biar saja kita merasa,
Nikmat kasih kala berjauh,
Nikmat sayang di ketika ini,
Agar nanti,
Nikmat rindu saat bersua,
Menjadi sulaman cinta yang kita bina.

Hiaskan dirimu untuk pertemuan itu,
Dengan titisan iman dan percikan taqwa.
Kerana aku juga akan bersiap,
Dengan bahuku untuk memikul,
Tanggungjawab Adam untuk si Hawa.

Berkat doaku setiap hari,
"satukan hati kami,
seperti kau satukan
hati Adam dengan Hawa,
hati Yusuf dengan Zulaikha,
dan
hati Muhammad s.a.w dengan Siti Khadijah".




:: Loving You Makes Me Hunger For Tomorrow ::

Quotes of LOVE

Aku bukan lah Shah Jahan
yang mengerah hamba membina Taj Mahal
untuk permaisuri yang dicintainya

Aku juga bukan Sulaiman
yang mengerah jin untuk membina istana kaca
untuk Balqis yang tercinta

Aku bukan Sultan Melayu
yang mengerah rakyat
untuk memenuhi 7 syarat Putri Gunung Ledang

Aku hanya manusia biasa
yang hanya mampu membina istana cinta
yang dihiasi dengan kasih sayang
yang tak mampu dilihat oleh mata kasar
namun dapat dilihat dengan hati yang ikhlas.

Genting Highlands 2008

21st June '08

5.30 am - woke up, bath, subuh and pack up my stuff.
7.00 am - light breakfast with mom and dad.
7.30 am - pick yana at her house and meet josh & faruq at the petrol station. fuel and go~


is this is what i call packing? =) it is a big big mess on my bed as early as 6!


08.00 am - i felt a lil bit drowsy and oh no! FLU.. but still drive like usual.
10.00 am - reach genting and too early to check in so park our car and go to the skyway station.


at the skyway station to go to the center of genting. since our hotel (Awana) is at the lower place then the center, so we have to take the cable car since we love to act like monkeys in there.

nice view~

we do a lil bit of walking!

no, not now... later ya!


12.30 pm - get down back to the hotel by the cable car.
01.00 pm - getting ourself check in to the hotel.
01.30 pm - after cleaning up myself, perform the zuhur and lunch, i feel that my flu is getting bad to worse.
02.00 pm - time to go jalan-jalan but I really can't follow no more. I took my medicine and.. SLEEP! only they go jalan-jalan and play around the theme park.

Going to the Hotel, Awana Genting Highlands!

the guys room before and after!
(I know that I am staying with 2 monkeys : Faruq + Josh) hehe..

05.00 pm - woke up from sleep and.. feel better. Bored so I get my laptop and hehe.. =)
I am attached to the laptop till night...
12.00 pm - get some sleep and want to be back at home a.s.ap.



22nd June '08

08.00 am - woke up late, missed my subuh.
09.00 am - breakfast and take my medicine. jalan a bit tru the hotels.
10.30 am - Laptop again hehe.. and have my lunch at 12.30pm.
01.30 pm - Checked out and zoom back to home...
04.00 pm - reached home and feel better! =)

syue and yana!


alia and faruq



:: happy though I only spend my days in the room, hehe ::

Friday, June 20, 2008

hopping this is not the last


Fri, 20th june '08

+ woke up at 6.30am
+ swim for 2 rounds
+ breakfast with parents
+ went to gym and do little bit of work up (the rest is hang up with josh)
+ booked tickets/accommodation for tomorrow - a room for the guys and a room for the girls
+ went to petrol station, and huh, RM 90+ for the car fuel (last time was Rm70+ full tank)
+ went back to home sweet home, shower and get ready for friday prayer at the mosque
+ after friday prayer need to meet up some friends
+ after meeting up friends, need to pick up yana for her shopping (kena buli lagi)
+ than tonight i am going to just stay at home hopefully!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

to someone i think is special

My life is so confusing
I don't know where to turn
If I make a mistake
My heart will surely burn
But life is full of decisions
Choices that you have to make
And its hard to choose
When your heart is at stake
I must take that chance
No matter what is in store
I'll do it again
Because I did it before
It is risky, I know
But I must try
I know that you’re a sweet person
I can see it inside
I don't take many chances my friend
But when I do
It would have to mean
I met someone as special as you!

:: you are special to me without you yourself knowing ::

secretly loving you (part III)

When I look at you my heart starts to race.
My head is spinning, I'm lost in your gaze.
I know nothing of the world around me,
Life is just a blur.
Your presence consumes me.
I think of your face, your laugh, your smile,
I hang on your every word.
You control my thoughts, possess my dreams.
I long for your embrace.
Not a day goes bye when I don't think of you.
If only you knew.



"My love for you is secret

I weep when we are apart
If I open up my heart
It would rip our friendship apart
So I'll keep my love a secret
A secret of the heart"


:: the secret love that you will know someday ::

my cousin, yana!

Since Josh and Faruq is begging me like hell to follow them to genting this coming weekend, i can't no more reject the offer! Huh, Faruq ni baru je nak bukak simen kt kaki tu dah bising nak jalan! Mmg nak kene. But it is kinda amazing that he got to get off the cement for only a week plus. It is because his leg is not broken, but actually he was lying on me! Damn it, Faruq!!! Nanti Syaiq patah-patahkan kaki tu! Humm, back about genting.. Actually it is kinda nice to go but the actual reason why I refuse to go is.. Hum.. because Josh is going to be 24/7 melekat dgn Syue while Faruq and Alia, then me? So, an idea came up.. I called my cousin Yana, and she's available since Azim has gone back to Australia.. So what else? Yana, please please please.. Everything is on me! But my little cute donkey cousin Yana will be like usual... She'll paw me this and that... Donkey betul si Yana ni. Mengalahkan puteri gunung ledang!

+ teman dia for spa treatment
+ belanja her hair treatment (kt a cut above lak tu!)
+ ice cream haagen
+ tolong buat assignment!

huh... have too lah.. since... she'll be my saver dari menganga when that 2 donkey boys berkepit ngn their gf! hehehe =)

But this really reminds me of my lil cousin Yana.. huh, dah 19 years old dah this girl!
Plus it is kinda long long time we never spend time together like before
(since her crazy jealous bf azim appears la..hehehe)
+sorry azim, i know u love her damn much+


berangan nak jadi model, my lil liyana!


remember when we used to do school works together!
but end up sms and laugh here and there!


yana the naughty girl! selalu nak paw mcD!


yea, yea, I know u r cute!

her bf, azim which now in australia!
(azim, take care of my lil yana k!)

azim & yana
when we were hanging out before azim fly off back to aus!



:: sorry my secret lover, i know i can't bring u along, so i have to borrow azim's gf ::
:: but yana is my cousin anyway, ok ::


Wednesday, June 18, 2008

quiz quiz quiz

Have I ever..

Drank: no
Smoked: no
Kissed the same sex: yes, my dad hehe
Kissed the opposite sex: yes, my mom hehe
Skinny dipped: no
Broke a bone: no
Failed a class: no
Killed someone: no
Cried over a boy or girl: yes
Had a death in the family: yes
Ran around nude: yes when i was a little boy

Do I...

Live in the moment? yes
Have a dream that keeps coming back? yes
Play an instrument? piano and guitar
Believe there is life on other planets? yes
Read the newspaper? yes
Have any gay or lesbian friends? oh no!
Believe in miracles? yes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? yes we can
Consider yourself tolerant of others? usually
Believe in astrology? sometimes i do haha
Go to church? no i am a muslim, da~
Have any secrets? yes
Have any pets? no
Do well in school? yes
Go to college? yes
Talk to strangers who instant message you? uhmm maybe yes
Have any piercings? no
Have any tattoos? no
Have an obsession? yes
Collect anything? yes
Have a best friend? yes
Wish on stars? sometimes i do..
Like your handwriting? yes
Have any bad habits? yes
Care about looks? yes

This or that?
Daytime or night time? night
Horror or comedy? romantic comedy
Book or TV? book
Beer or spirits? milk haha
Disco or rock? rock
Romantic meal for two or gang down the pub? romantic
Flowers or chocolates? both
Innie or outtie? innie
'Road Trip' or 'American Pie'? American Pie
Financial gain or spiritual gratification? financial
Fame or quiet life? quiet
Parents advice or friends advice? parent's first then friends
Football or Soaps? cartoons
Bored with this thing or happy to continue? humm... continue je la..
Happy in life or constantly depressed? happy kot
MSN or Yahoo? YM
Frasier or Ally McBeal? Ally McBeal
Playstation or Nintendo? PS2 + PSP
Yes or No? Yes
Cheese or Ham? cheese
Blue or black ink? black
Over the phone or face to face? face to face
Barbeque or Sunday Roast? Sunday Roast, bbq is kinda nice too
Plans for the future or take it as it comes? Plans
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? Milk
McDonalds or Burger King? Burger King
Sweet or sour? Sweet
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? Pepsi
Cats or dogs? -
Ocean or pool? both
Nacho Cheese or cool ranch? -
With or without ice-cubes? -
Shine or rain? rain
Winter/Summer/Autumn/Spring? Autumn and winter
Vanilla or Chocolate? chocs
Skiing or snow boarding? neither
Biking or blading? biking...
Cereal or toast? cereal
Night or day? night
Gloves or mittens? gloves
Eyes open or closed? closed
Bunk bed or waterbed? water
Chewing gum or hard candy? hard candy
Motor boat or sailboat? motor
Lights on or off? off

I am...
Quiet or Loud?: quiet
Short or Tall?: tall
Weird or Original?: original
Nice or Mean?: nice
Friendly or Selfish?: friendly
Normal or Special?: normal
Smart or Stupid?: smart... haha who wants to declare stupid??
Boring or Fun?: bored kot..
Attractive or Unattractive? You decide...

silly questions

  1. Are you an innie or an outie? -innie

  2. Have you ever written a song? -yes

  3. Can you make change for a dollar right now? -yes

  4. Have you ever been in the opposite sex's public toilet? yes! when I was a little boy!

  5. Have you ever written a poem? -a lots

  6. Do you like catsup on or beside your fries? -no

  7. Have you ever been a boy/girl scout? -no

  8. Have you ever written a book? -haven't! wish i could one day

  9. Have you ever broken a mirror? -yes and hurt myself accidently

  10. Are you superstitious? -no

  11. What is your biggest pet peeve? -never ever had a pet

  12. Do you slurp your drink after it's gone? -no

  13. Have you ever blown bubbles in your milk? -haha yes

  14. Would you rather eat a Big Mac or a Whopper? -whopper

  15. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? -never

  16. Would you ever parachute out of a plane? -never, scared of height

  17. What's the most daring thing you've done? - kneel down to a girl and say I LOVE YOU

  18. When you are at the grocery store, do you ask for paper or plastic? -paper

  19. True or False: You would rather eat steak than pizza. -False

  20. Did you have a baby blanket? -yes

  21. Have you ever tried to cut your own hair? -yes and get scolded for that

  22. How did that turn out? - told ya

  23. Have you ever sleepwalked? -yes when I was a little boy (everyone does)

  24. Have you ever had a birthday party at McDonalds? -yes when I was 5

  25. Can you flip your eye-lids up? -no! disgust me

  26. Are you double jointed? -no

  27. If you could be any age, what age would you be? - 10

  28. Have you ever gotten gum stuck in your hair? -no

  29. Do you ride roller coasters? -yes

  30. What's your favorite carnival ride? -i hates coasters and stuff

  31. What is your dream car? -lamborg haha

  32. What is your favorite cartoon of all time? -mickey mouse and friends

  33. Have you ever eaten a dog biscuit? -yukks! No way!

  34. If so, would you eat another one? -i said never!

  35. If you were in a car sinking in a lake, what would you do first? -Well, break the windscreen

  36. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? -no

  37. Can you pick something up with your toes? -my socks

  38. How many remote controls do you have in your house? -i am sure it is more than 20!

  39. Have you ever fallen asleep in school? -yes

  40. How many times have you flown in an airplane in the last year? -many

  41. How many foreign countries have you visited? -more than 10, less than 20

  42. If you were out of shape, would you compete in a triathlon if you were somehow guaranteed to win a big, gaudy medal? -yes

  43. Would you rather be rich and unhappy, or poor and happy? -poor and happy

  44. If you fell into quicksand, would you try to swim or try to float? -never experience

  45. Do you ask for directions when you are lost? -i'll try first later ask

  46. Have you ever held a Mexican jumping bean? -haha no

  47. Are you more like Cinderella or Alice in Wonderland? -OMG! I am a guy!

  48. Would you rather have an ant farm with no ants or a box of crayons with broken points? -what is that suppose to mean? But I guess better the crayons

  49. Do you prefer light or dark bread? -light

  50. Do you prefer scrambled or fried eggs? -scrambled

  51. Have you ever been in a car that ran out of gas? -no

  52. Do you talk in your sleep? -no

  53. Would you rather shovel snow or mow the lawn? -shovel

  54. Have you ever played in the rain? -yes and get scolded for god sake!

  55. Did you make mud pies? -no

  56. Have you ever broken a bone? -no

  57. Would you climb a very high tree to save a kitten? -no

  58. Can you tell the difference between a crocodile and an alligator? -well is this a science class or sumthing?

  59. Do you drink pepsi or coke? -both but prefer pepsi

  60. What's your favorite number? -2

  61. If you were a car, would you be an SUV or a sports car? -SUV! I can bring more buds!

  62. Have you ever accidentally taken something from a hotel? -maybe

  63. Have you ever slipped in the bathtub? -yes and hurt my arms

  64. Do you use regular or deodorant soap? -I use gels

  65. Have you ever locked yourself out of the house? -maybe

  66. Would you rather make your living as a singing cowboy or as one of the Simpsons voices? -ha?

  67. If you could invite any movie star to your home for dinner, who would it be? -yes why not and it wud be Jessica Alba!!

  68. Do you need corrective lenses? -maybe yes but I wud prefer specs

  69. Would you hang out with / date someone your best friend didn't like? -why not

  70. Would you hang out with someone your best friend liked, but you didn't like? -no way!

  71. Have you ever returned a gift? -yes! to my ex~

  72. Would you give someone else a gift that had been given to you? -no way! it is kinda rude!

  73. If you could attend an Olympic Event, what would it be? -well, the opening!

  74. If you could participate in an Olympic Event, what would it be? -taekwondo?

  75. How many pairs of shoes do you own? -2 doors of cupboard

  76. If your grandmother gave you a gift that you already have, would you tell her? -tq

  77. Do you sing in the car? -yes and always

  78. What is your favorite breed of dog? -i am a muslim, da~

  79. Would you donate money to feed starving animals in the winter? -yes

  80. What is your favorite fruit? -strawberry, grapes and persimmon

  81. What is your least favorite fruit? -papaya

  82. What kind of fruit have you never had? -i dunno

  83. If you won a $5,000 shopping spree to any store, which store would you pick? -fashion store

  84. What brand sports apparel do you wear the most? -nike

  85. Are/were you a good student? -yes i am

  86. Among your friends, who could you arm wrestle and beat? -no

  87. If you had to choose, what branch of the military would you be in? -neither

  88. What do you think is your best feature? -dunno

  89. If you were to win a Grammy, what kind of music would it be for? -soul

  90. If you were to win an Osacr, what kind of movie would it be for? -love

  91. What is your favorite season? -all season

  92. How many members do you have in your immediate family? -3

  93. Which of the five senses is most important to you? -all is important

  94. Would you be a more successful painter or singer? -painter

  95. How many years will/did you end up going to college? -5 years

  96. Have you ever had surgery? -no

  97. Would you rather be a professional figure skater or professional football player? -skater

  98. What do you like to collect? -movies tickets

  99. How many collectibles do you have? -100+

  100. What one question would you add to this survey? 100 is more than enough, dude!

secretly loving you (part II)

I think you’re beautiful
But I can’t tell you
I like the way you laugh
But I can’t tell you
I like the way you talk
But I can’t tell you
I like the way you wear your dress
I think you are the best
I like the way you sing along
To our favorite song
But I can’t tell you
I like the way you say your mind
Then stop, and ask for mine
I like the way you chew your gum
And when we through the daises run
But I can’t tell you
I like the way you start the fight
And then are first to make it right
I like the sparkle in your eye
And when I wink at you, you giggle like your shy
I like the way we sit and talk
About all that’s in our heart
I like the way you like me
And accept me for who I am
I like the way I want to change
And be a better man
I love you,
but I can’t tell you
Because we are friends!


:: secretly loving you ::
:: the love that I will confess one day ::

A Heart Dedication For Someone.. (part III)

The lake, half hidden by the trees
Is like my love for you.
Although we know it's there
It's almost hidden from our view.
The many shades of leaves
Are like the way I sometimes feel
My moods in love are varied,
As colors are dramatic
As leaves are very real.
The waters of the lake are deep,
And dark, and almost still
Like that, I cannot speak of our love,
Not now, not yet, until..
But someday I will.

Some brighter time will clear the way,
The waters will run bright,
Clear and sparkling for all to see
No more as dark as night, and then one day
I'll talk about our love,
When freedom comes, and peace,
When I can hold you, unafraid
And life seems not to cease.
Until then, perhaps the way ahead

Seems sad.
But life is not a carousel,
And often things seem bad.
Our love can wait, the hope is there,
And soon things will be fine,
One thing I ask - I ask it now,
Please let us have our time.
As I want you to grow good first.
My love can always wait for you.

:: secretly loving you ::

Questions of the day!

1. What time did you get up this morning?
6.50am

2. Diamonds or pearls?
Neither, I don’t wear accessories.

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Over Her Dead Body

4. What is your favorite TV show?
I watch whatever I could catch up.

5. What do you usually have for breakfast?
Vegetable Porrigde + milk

6. What is your middle name?
Hashfee

7. What food do you dislike?
Dirty food

8. What is your favorite CD at the moment?
Well, I listen to mp3 most of the time

9. What kind of car do you drive?
Car with four tires.. ahha =) honda jazz

10. Favorite sandwich?
vegetables

11. What characteristic do you despise?
Phillistinic ignorance

12. Favorite item of clothing?
boxer! haha

13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Rome again and again! (romantic place ever)

14. What color is your bathroom?
Earth tone

15. Favorite brand of clothing?
Marks & Spencer, Topshop and G2000

16. Where would you retire to?
Home sweet home

17. What was your most recent memorable birthday?
Every year!

18. Favorite sport to watch?
All

19. Furthest place you are sending this?
Dunno

20. Who do you least expect to send this back to you?
I expect everybody to copy this and put it up their blogs too

21. Person you expect to send it back first?
People who read my blog daily.

22. Favorite word?
‘OK’

23. When is your birthday?
1st Jan 88

24. Are you a morning person or a night person?
a very morning person

25. What is your shoe size?
10

26. Pets?
None

27. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share with us?

Well, nothing..

28. What did you want to become when you were little?
a pilot

29. How are you today?
good

30. What is your favorite candy?
chocs

31. What is your favorite flower?
roses and lily also carnation maybe

32. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to?
i am not looking forward to any special day

33. What is your full name?
Syaiqkal Hashfee Bin Adam Syariff

34. What was the last thing you ate?
Mushroom soup

35. Do you wish on stars?
Yes, sometimes...

36. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
purple

37. How is the weather right now?
Cloudy

38. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
mommy

39. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
I got it from the net..

40. Favorite soft drink?
orange juice

41. Favorite restaurant?
Floating Restaurant

42. Hair color?
Dark brown blackish

43. Sibling?
only child

44. Favorite day of the year?
Vacation with family

45. What was your favorite toy as a child?
what ar?? humm..

46. Summer or winter?
winter

47. Hugs or kisses?
both

48. Chocolate or Vanilla?
chocs

49. Do you want your friends to email you back?
ha??

50. When was the last time you cried?
always been crying baby! haha

51. What is under your bed?
the floor hahaha

52. Who is the friend you have had the longest?
Faruq Damian and Benjamin Joshua!

53. What did you do last night?
Hang out with frens at starbucks

54. Favorite smell?
Fruity smells

55. What are you afraid of?
heights.. haha!

56. Plain, buttered, or salted Popcorn?
Caramel pops!

57. How many keys on your key ring?
4

58. How many years at your current job?
2 years ++

59. Favorite day of the week?
Sunday

60. How many towns have you lived in?
Uhmm.. this is the 4rd? (middlesex, shah alam, toronto, jakarta, shah alam??)

61. Do you make friends easily?
Maybe..

62.How many people will you be sending this to?
I’ll put it up in my blog.

63. Where will be your first date spot?
Maybe movies, private cafe or evening drive with ice cream!

64. Romantic or serious lover?
very romantic! hahaha

67. Fav movie?
lots lots lots, but most of all, all type of romantic comedies selections!

68. Fav spot for movies?
cineleisure damansara, or GSC pavilion.

69. drive fast or slow?
accordingly!

70. how many time u shower a day?
morning, afternoon, evening, before bed, so.. 4 times per day!

71. Your toothpaste?
sensodyne green!

72. Your perfume?
Always be polo blue, since last 4 years!!

73. Your shampoo?
Clairol Herbal Essenses

74. Your Bath gel?
St. Ives body wash

75. Your face wash?
Clinique for men

76. Your deodorant?
haisshh!! all oso wanna know meh?? Polo men's deo

77. Fav cake house?
Secret Recipe or Zen

78. Fav donnuts?
Jco and Big Apple

79. Fav coffee?
Starbucks or Coffee Bean

80. Fav ice cream?
Haagen Daaz or Baskin Robinzz


happy anniversary JOSHUA + SYULIEA

Hey dude Joshua and Syuliea,

I wish both of u happy 2nd anniversary!! Wow, it has been 2 years since u guys together ya! Hope u guys will be always happily together and end up in marriage life, ya! Can't wait for that moment! U both are perfect for each other, Joshua is cute as Syuliea is simply pretty cute too! Syuliea is a good girl, well Joshua is a good girl too, hahaha! No la, Joshua is a good boy, aite?

Syuliea Iking Zerza and Benjamin Joshua Vergouze, LOVE LOVE LOVE!!

Joshua and Syuliea is a perfect couple ever!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

latest face of me

do i look ok without that shaving??
Hahaha.. I look damn old! ~

A Heart Dedication For Someone.. (part II)

I started to like you more every day,
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turns pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end.


:: secretly loving you ::
:: secret love that you'll know one day ::

looking back to those days

You left me broken hearted,
year after year,
I wanted to smile,
but it just wouldn't appear
every time I think of you,
a tear comes to my eye,
I had always loved you,
now every night I cry,
We had something special,
something I though would never end,
but then summer came,
you were ne longer my girl,
you changed,
I became bruised,
all dirty and washed up,
I knew I had been used,
What once had been love,
quickly became fear,
all I thought while you laid in was,
god, get me out of here,
if all this is true,
and you're finally gone,
then why am I crying,
something must be wrong,
I cried with you,
I cry without,
You've scarred my mind,
I have no doubt,
remember this,
my violent friend,
you've acttacked once,
I didn't think it would end,
but I muddled through,
and can live without you,
so do what you want,
I really don't care,
But the scars you've imbedded,
honestly weren't fair.

:: DEPRESSION ::

2006/2007
Jakarta, Indonesia.
I was so skinny back then with my curly hair that I simply styled up.

A Heart Dedication For Someone..

I met an angel on my screen
So friendly, kind and sweet...
She makes me feel so special
I long for when we’ll meet...
We’ve talked for hours here online
She brought such joy into my life
When once I was alone.

The love I feel within my heart
Was but a dream to me...
A dream that once was out of reach
Has become reality...
Ever present in my thoughts
Always in my heart...
Forever shall I love her
And never shall we part.

I met an angel on my screen
So full of life and love...
An angel that was sent to me
From Heaven up above...
Always with a kind word
Her laughter fills the air...
Her love is never ending
A love that’s always there.

So if you ever meet someone
My wish for you is this...
I wish you all the love I’ve found
For it’s the sweetest gift...
The feeling that you are so loved
No other can compare...
To have this kind of special love
And someone with whom to share.

:: secretly loving someone ::

online.. online.. and online..

study table....

and even on the tea table...

secretly loving you


Sometimes I look up the bright blue sky
When I saw you there I wonder why
I tried to sleep tight with all my might
While I'm thinking of you every night
I think I love you and that is why

:: secret love that you'll know one day ::

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Jakarta 2008 revisit!

It is nice to be back to Jakarta!

View at the pool area of the XX house!
~well, this villa is ever the best!~

It is nice to be back again to Jakarta! I was again there for 5 days only just to revisit the place that changed me, the place that released me from the desperation, the place that brings me back to life! But anyway very sorry to friends in DKI that I can't spend a week like a promised! But anyway maybe by end of this year I am coming back! ~Miss you guys so much, Miss the singkong keju too~ hehe!

Jakarta 2007 friends!

Jalan-jalan sama kamu semua memang happy bangat deh!
(Ed, Riq dan Safwan kamu tiga kawan yang baik bangat!)

Ingat tak deh, malam yang bisa tenang-tenangan gitu!

Gig yang bagus bangat! (at Semanggi Expo)

I was away to Jakarta last year for student exchange program under the youth educational student exchange for about 3 months plus. It was a great exposure and experience! Nice friends, nice country and great place! I will never forget the Kemang Area, coz it is Ed's house that we used to lepak and where we used to eat at night, eating Malaysian Menus at KL Village and the Semanggi Expo! I loved to be back somedays and stay longer! (Not like my last 3 weeks visits, I only can spend 5 Days, dude since I have things to settle here back in Msia!) Very sorry but I promised right? I'll be back someday, somehow!

Friday, June 13, 2008

Toronto, Canada : december 2007

How happy mommy gets to meet her brother, Uncle Gerald!

Cousin Ivan, Granny Cynthia, Uncle Gerald, Mommy and Grandpa Joseph!

Granny's at D' Arcy Magee Cres, Toronto.

Toronto City at Night!

The last time we were back to mom's hometown is last december 2007! Wow, it has been quiet sometimes ya! Missing granny Cynthia and grandpa Joseph. Well, I just simply think about this sometimes. We do have family relation since mom is their daughter. But yet, we don't share the same religion. Me, dad and mom are of course a muslim, but they are still with their old religion, Catholic, I guess. But one thing that amaze me, though the difference of religion makes us different, but it never loosen the ties of families. We are still sharing the love that brings happiness everytime we are back to Toronto. They respect dad and their love towards mommy never change! Great!